How Do You Keep Focus?
I picked up my first camera, a Nikon D70, back in late 2004. That’s almost 8 years ago; a sufficient amount of time to have passed to have long sinceĀ stopped considering myself a newbie. But at the time I was a complete photography virgin, with absolutely no clue what so ever about photography, either as a craft or an art form. I remember opening the user manual and going through every function and menu item, learning how to adjust the various cameras settings, but not understanding in the least, what any of the settings actually did. So my focus at the time was to learn. To absorb as much information as I could about the basics of photography, focusing very much on the craft, hoping that the art would follow at some point down the road.
The First Year
That first year, I really immersed myself in photography, trying to pick up as much information and guidance as I could from on-line content and availing of the constructive(?) critique offered in many photography forums. I even had a UK Photographer, Simon Young, fly to Ireland to offer direct 1 to 1 tuition (well actually 1 to 4 – a group of us did it to keep the costs sensible), My point being, it was easy to keep focused, easy to be motivated. Everything was new and I was continually improving, albeit in small steps.
The Camera Club Scene
In September 2006, having been shooting for just under 2 years, I joined a local camera club: Celbridge Camera Club. Up to that point, most of my work was predominantly monochrome, with the odd rare colour image thrown in. Based on my portfolio at the time, I managed to blag my way straight into their “Advanced” section and was ready to compete. You see camera clubs are very competition focused, or certainly Celbridge was at the time. Although the competition aspect was new to me, I was always used to having my work judged or critiqued on line, so I fit straight into the competitions and having my work judged by photographers. And the competitions gave me a new focus. I wasn’t just focused on learning any more, but now focused on improving at a faster rate, so my work could compare and ideally thrive against the work of the other photographers around me.
Apart from introducing me to some great friends (in that club and Nationally), Celbridge Camera Club also helped me focus on other areas of my photography. Having joined as a monochrome only photographer, it soon became evident to me, that in order to win the prized “Photographer Of The Year”, I needed to branch into colour and indeed needed to invest in learning about printing – both of which I did.
The IPF Distinctions
Sadly, the focus that local club competitions provide, tends to drop off as time goes by. By and large, you are competing against the same photographers or certainly the same type of images. Clubs tend to be steered by their stronger members, so the style and genre they shoot can really impact the style and genre the club becomes known for. Having competed successfully within the club, I started to lose that focus and decided to look beyond for my next project, something to get me back on track and this came by way of the IPF distinctions. The distinction process is simply where the photographer produces a body of work which is then judged and either deemed to be of a standard or indeed not of a standard. The levels are the LIPF (10 images), AIPF (15 images) and finally the FIPF (20 images). These were just what I needed at the time and I jumped straight in. My LIPF, awarded in April 2008 was a body of work I pulled from existing material and following on from that I shot an (almost) dedicated panel of 15 images for my AIPF, which was awarded in November that same year (2008) and a completely new and completely different panel for my Fellowship the following April, 2009. These were just the focus, just the project I needed at the time. A solid 12 months of shooting and printing, working both on the art and the craft.
FIAP Distinctions
Following on from my Fellowship in May of 2009, I suffered my first serious dip… my first serious loss of focus. 2008/2009 was a pretty intense year of shooting, so much so it all became a bit like work. But after a while, I started to shoot again and focused my attention at shooting for and submitting to FIAP Salons. I had found another focus, another new motivation
And I’ve been really lucky to have had some success in these salons, having picked up 50 international awards in a 19 month period (assuming this gets published in early/mid March).
What’s Next?
Sadly though, my motivation here is also starting to wane. My last proper shoot was back in early November with Iveta Niklova and a very VERY short shoot during my trip to New York with Anna Catherine. In essence though, I haven’t had a shoot in almost 6 months. That’s 1/2 a year
Without new content to submit, I haven’t been interested in submitting to new salons. It’s also pretty tough keeping up a “photo blog” without images to show
And being honest, I’ve actually found it very hard to plan any shoots, because without a project in mind, I’m not sure what the content will be for? I guess I’ve lost my focus.
It used to be enough to shoot for the sheer fun of it… or was it? Looking back I’ve always had a project in mind or an end goal to work for, so was it ever just about the process? I know every photographer tends to go through dips where their interest, motivation and love affair wanes and I guess this is just my turn?
Ciaran,
It’s almost like you’re written my biography. I just couldn’t be arsed over the last few years. The enthusiasm and love for good photos is still there, I just have no drive to go get ‘em.
t’ other Ciaran
I certainly hope my dip won’t be a few years Ciaran, but who knows? I’m not getting down about this. The dip comes to everyone. It’s just my turn
Hang in there….I know the feeling, I have the same dip as a musician…its similar with a lot of creative processes, we have high and lows. I like to think of it like a water tap…once we turn on the creative flow its difficult to stop it, but sometimes it doesn’t flow as hard as other times, it will gush out sometimes then slow to a drip. In the past I’ve found that it’s easier to accept the ebb and flow rather than force things, but then that’s just me, everyone is different. You have achieved a lot and produced some truely stunning work, maybe its time to exhale and wait for the next gush
Whenever that happens I’m sure it will be worth it
I have been where you are, but much worse. After departing from the photography I loved (fine art) to make a living at what I was good at (weddings) it was almost like selling my …. well, I sold out to support my family. When an opportunity came along to support my family with other talents I have and having nothing to do with a camera I jumped on it! I went 18 moths before I could even look at a camera much less touch one. When I felt like I had the desire to shoot again, I started looking for inspiration to feed my desire. Your blog is one of the first places I came back to. Best wishes on getting through this and hope you don’t go on hiatus as long as I did.
JD
Ciaran, Your work including this blog is informative, interesting and is well taught out (the project)…
STOP:
I would like to ask you to consider another project, working and shooting with complete newbie sitters and that most certainly includes broadening the age group shot. Seeing beauty is essential to shooting it…. For a while throw out that old adage; make life easier by the careful selection of your models.
Very often the creative interaction will take a while to develop. I read somewhere ‘a great portrait is evidence of a great conversation’ ….. In that conversation ask the model what they like, how do they ideally see themselves being portrayed in a better than reality shoot.
You have total control over camera craft, but essentially you are letting go of the initial creative elements, it can be surprising how quickly control passes back. I am not saying it will work all the time but it is a different and perhaps more fluid route to a creative spark.
Imagine,if you ran a studio and clients (any and all clients) want amazing, give it to them.
Should you chose to take on this mission, remember we want bloody well amazing lol
Good luck !!
From your post, it sounds to me like you’ve been looking for *external* validation of your work for the past few years. And, now that you’ve climbed ‘your’ Everest, the FIAPs, you’re not sure where to go next. Maybe it’s time to look inside yourself and see what YOU want to do next…
I think you’ve been a big fan of Raphaella, ballet and dance in general. Maybe there’s something there for a personal project.
I remember these photos (link below) and always thought they were an outlier for your published work. Maybe there’s a personal project there as well… (Landscapes from Carton House, 2010)
http://www.thewonderoflight.com/?p=977
In other words, what photos would you hang on the wall because you actaully like them, instead of them winning competition x,y,z…
Thanks for the feedback everyone
That’s quite an astute observation Shane. For sure I definitely seek external validation, but I think this is a trait that all photographers share? From what I have observed, photography is largely ego driven. We all like our own work, but even more, we like others to like it. So we all seek validation and that comes in many different forms.
But seeking validation is to mutually exclusive to me liking my own work. I do shoot for myself first. I’m my own worst critic and indeed biggest fan. The external validation, whilst playing a huge part, is secondary.
What about producing a book or books of your work. The Blurb ProLine books are beautiful quality books just waiting for your images and stories.
Nothing more satisfying than having a copy of your book of your own works. Even if you have the only copy!